Love.... and you though it was bad before

Man.... I never ever ever want to let my guard down again

I was in love.... I can't lie I probably still am

But now he is with a woman almost 10 years older than him that has the freakin same name as me...tell me thats not just plain weird? Like I don't even know what to think

What sucks is with all of this I lost my best friend, and our relationship will never ever be the same. I used to think he cared about this but now I know he doesn't....

The worse part is he still wants to be friends as if he's not dating someone with my name.....

We were never even in a relationship, he always said we wasn't ready. And I stayed...like a dummie

But than she comes and he hops into one with her....idk I never ever feel incompetent...but for a week I have

and just to let you know facebook is the devil when you're really trying to get over someone.... I never ever check his page...idk why I just don't....But today of all days I decide to and theres a comment about her being his future wife...

.....yea....literally saw the dagger go straight through my heart.......

I don't know I guess I've just been lying to myself...this whole time I've been doing my thing I've just always known in the back in my head we were going to end up together in like 5 years when I'm done with law and all the things I want to do.....

yep....kidding myself...

It just sucks, because it takes me ssssooooo long to like people...I'm 21 and have only liked 2 people in my entire life....

You would think someone as driven as me wouldn't mind it right?

Congrats....you've pulled back another layer....